Bangalorean Psycho

For most of my life I have been cribbing about how fucked up my life is. I don't know why but in the last few days the thought that I have been immensely lucky has been the recurring theme in my thoughts. It's a rare feeling, because I am one of those people who manage to find the dark lining in the most silver of clouds. I have done a lot of things wrong, been more careless than most people I know, but have still ended up pretty decently. Not exactly 'ended up' yet, but doing better than so many more careful and earnest people I know.
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There's this show on World Movies called The Screaming Room. I saw part of it for the first time last night, and it looks like one of the better shows on TV right now. Last night, the episode was comparing the two versions of Psycho - the Hitchcock one and the one starring Vince Vaughn. I have seen both, and I'll vote for the Hitchcock version anyday. There's no Hitchcock movie, till date, that I have found truly scary, but I love the attention to detail and the care given to scenario build-up in his movies. He was a brilliant chap.
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The show also mentioned Ed Gein and his influence on American movies. I have been fascinated for a long time by such people. Probably enough to try something like it myself. I would actually not mind too much trying out human flesh/blood for once. And I am pretty sure I will kill someone some day. Unless I kill myself before that. I don't respect life all that much, and believe that there are a lot of people who don't deserve to live, or at least are eminently expendable.
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There's a cousin of mine who I could truly call my only best friend. He has known me for the longest time, and tolerated me through the same period, which is commendable for any person. He is too nice a person, and I recently told him about some of my favorite gory/perverse movies. Though I talk about such movies with people who haven't generally seen them mostly for effect, and enjoy when they squirm or appear shocked, I was quite taken aback by his reaction. I didn't know there were people who actually weren't even aware of the existence of movies like Cannibal Holocaust or Pink Flamingos (two of my favorites movies). It bodes well for this world that people as sane as him, and as normal as him, exist.